August 6th

August 6th

I am Tahasi Massk

I hope that I can help her see everything that she is to me. That I can express to her how lucky I feel to have her in my life. To help her know that she is always the first ‘thank you’ in every prayer. That she is the motivation for all my efforts. That she is the center of all my desires. That she is in so many ways better than I ever dreamed. Until perception can be transferred directly between minds, I have to hope that I can convey what I feel with words. And with actions that prove that they are far more than just words.

August 5th

August 5th

I am Tahasi Massk

There are certain things that she has always understood. Nuances about literature and life seem to flow from her mind. And she records them religiously. She has her favorite pens, and her favorite notebooks. She fills them and they fill our shelves. I love that her thoughts will be preserved for our posterity. That the amazing mind she has will continue to bless others, even when we are long gone.

August 4th

August 4th

I am Tahasi Massk

I think that every couple has little shared secrets. Inside jokes, special looks, phrases that mean more than they convey to other people. They for a way to bond with one another in secret even when surrounded by people. We have a whole language. We speak and all anyone notices is sound, but meaning escapes them. But it is even more fun if nobody notices. If she has something she wants to say, she can whisper it in our secret language. We share a smile to go with the words.

August 3rd

August 3rd

I am Tahasi Massk

It is funny to think that if someone had told me even a few months ago ‘You haven’t achieved real marriage, or not yet anyway.’ I would have thought they were crazy. I would have replied, ‘You don’t know what you are talking about.’ There was so much good. So many things to be grateful for. So many wonderful memories. So much joy. I couldn’t have seen it then, but they would have been right. I had no idea that so much growth was still possible. So much improvement. And strangely, it isn’t so much about the outward things. There are some changes there, but the big ones are inside. A resonance with one another that makes everything a little more beautiful.

August 2nd

August 2nd

I am Tahasi Massk

It is fascinating to me to see how much my experience of things is affected by adopting an amorous  mindset and zeal. I never get tired of walking and talking. Coming home to her each day, I float, feeling energetic. Relishing each nighttime conversation, each morning discussion, each afternoon bike-ride chat. Each one feeds the very feeling that inspired it, so that we slip into a cycle of loving growth.

August 1st

August 1st

I am Tahasi Massk

She often comes up with ideas that are profound in their simplicity. Ideas that though small, change our life. She makes things that are good even betterLike reading together as we start each morning. Or having book parties for our children. Creating a system for holistic dialogue for the entire family. Practicing presentation skills as part of our children’s home education. All of these, aren’t just taking something good and making it better. She is building, really in little loving increments, new things. Intelligence doesn’t end at simply thinking for her. It flows into actions.

July 31st

July 31st

The love that we share creates home out of space. Even though our location often varies extensively with regard to physical comfort, when we are together in both mind and body, I feel home. That feeling must be treasured. In part because it has the miraculous ability to create happiness out of something else entirely. And chooses how our thoughts have expression. Realizing that our need for one another is our strength, we hold onto each other fiercely, and with all the tenderness and all the urgency that a love like ours deserves.

July 30th

July 30th

I am Tahasi Massk

She is constantly improving. Looking for ways to make herself a little better at things all the time. Always striving to be just a little bit better. And feeling close to her, I absorb a little of that too. Feeling this way is like the sun, because our relationship remains other worldly. Every day, wonderful insights, newly green spring up in its light. And we can bask in the beauty of it. And just like the rising sun, it is a new miracle each day. The repetition of it should not diminish my absolute wonder and awe that it occurs.

July 29th

July 29th

I am Tahasi Massk

Forgetfulness destroys gratitude. Remembering actualizes thankfulness. I think up daily entires. I wake up and remember things. Little things and not so little things. I remember the way she folds a book carefully before setting it aside. I remember how her brilliant mind stimulates conversation. I remember playing ‘What would we do if…?’ I remember how lucky I am to be able to talk with her about anything in the world. I remember how her eyes are more beautiful than sunrise. I remember how much I need her.

July 28th

July 28th

I am Tahasi Massk

One of the most dangerous enemies of our love is complacency. When I first fell in love, I was  constantly amazed by the wonder of her. And my love for her had powerful effects on me. I wanted to make myself better because of her. And I began to see the unique gifts that we created when we combined our strengths. But all too easily, time and exposure lulls me into taking our love for granted. And when that happens, complacency actually negates those good effects. That eventually neutralizes our unique gifts. How do I stop this enemy? I do what I promised in the very first entry. And the effects and the gifts flow, just like they did when I first fell in love.