November 21st

November 21st

I am Tahasi Massk

This morning she came back to bed after getting up early with some of the children. As the winter sunlight was streaming through the curtains, it lit up her face. Because she was asleep, I had time to simply appreciate the beauty of her face, every detail mesmerizing in that moment. I couldn’t even look away. No day is complete without her, but some days I am just reminded more powerfully of how beautiful she is.

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November 20th

November 20th

I am Tahasi Massk

Some days when I am at work, I feel a potent longing for her. As though my heart is stretching out, searching for its other half. Some days it comes on suddenly, and others it builds gradually until it actually feels physical. Yearning reaching across miles. I don’t see her, but I feel her. Far away, and a part of me knows she is reaching for me too.

November 19th

November 19th

Life sometimes hands us each difficult moments. Things that can’t help but alter our world view. Often it’s catastrophes. Events that make us look at things in a whole different light. Whether it is in our lives or the lives of our children, I am so grateful to have her to share those moments. To make them more bearable. To give me strength to help strengthen others.

November 18th

November 18th

I am Tahasi Massk

I truly draw strength from knowing that I will get to be with her at the end of the day. And the more time that will be the easier it is to go through my day joyfully. Work goes by faster, and I feel more engaged. It really does help with just about everything in my life. I plan stuff around the opportunities to be with her, so that we maximize our time together. And I know she does the same. It is one of the ways we show our love and need for one another.

November 17th

November 17th

I am Tahasi Massk

To have her love is the greatest gift of all. It is true that we have different natural interests, but deep down, she is my greatest interest. When there is a boring situation, she makes it less. Even things that I don’t love, I enjoy when I am with her and we are feeling each other’s love. That is the most enjoyable feeling in the world.

November 16th

November 16th

I am Tahasi Massk

Our relationship is more than what the two of us would be alone. It is a combination that is greater than the sum of the parts. Harmony isn’t simply both people playing the same notes. It is the beauty that comes from different notes. It is the idea that difference is beautiful. And when both people are willing to let everything go, simply playing their own wonderful music, something greater than parts is created.

November 15th

November 15th

I am Tahasi Massk

She is the engine of accomplishment. She is a powerhouse of doing things. If there is something that she sees that needs to be done, she doesn’t rest. It violates everything principle that makes her who she is to consider not doing what she believes to be right. I have been the grateful recipient of that engine for more than two decades, and it still amazes me.

November 14th

November 14th

I am Tahasi Massk

I love that we are able to do so many things together. Not just in the sense of having the time to do things together, but also in the sense of having the physical ability to do lots of things together. We bike, we hike, we kayak. We read, we travel, we see plays. We have been blessed with good health, and good minds. I love that she has worked hard to be able to do so many things that I find fun. It truly makes makes everything more fun when she is by my side.

November 13th

November 13th

I am Tahasi Massk

It has been five months since I started doing this. Those five months have been amazing in many ways. There have been some hard days. Occasionally, several in a row. But there have been wonderful days. Far more of them, and so many consecutive. People are surprised sometimes if our ‘natural’ way of interacting happens when others are around. We are far more affectionate than most couples. And that affection becomes cyclical. As we express our love in words and actions, we feel it more. That makes us want to express it more. Rinse and repeat.

November 12th

November 12th

I am Tahasi Massk

Every so often she will catch me staring at her, and will ask me what I am looking at. Usually gawking has the effect of making both people feel awkward, but in these moments it often is just that I can’t help staring. She chides me for ‘checking her out,’ but we both know that it is a sign of our healthy relationship.