October 11th

October 11th

I am Tahasi Massk

‘The course of love never did run smooth.’ Like every great love story, we have our moments of difficulty and despair. And when we reach those points, we struggle just like any other couple. At times it feels like we are trying everything reasonable to overcome negative thought patterns, and still those patterns persist. These are the times that we simply hold on. Hold on to each other. Hold on to the knowledge that we have. Hold on to the joyful memories. And most of all, hold on to hope. We are meant to be together. With that simple Truth as our guide, the question becomes, ‘How do we move forward together?’

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October 10th

October 10th

I am Tahasi Massk

I have noticed something wonderful about her. She often pushes herself in activities that she enjoys. If there is something that she really likes, she will dive into it completely, even sometimes going over the top a bit. And when she does, she excels at whatever that things is. If she truly loves something she does not do it halfheartedly.

October 9th

October 9th

I am Tahasi Massk

There are certain things that I just understand, and naturally accept. Sometimes that can be a helpful trait, because it helps me learn skills and traits related to those things. Other times it can get in the way. Because those things are naturally understood, I don’t know how to explain them. And because I naturally accept them, I don’t question the assumptions underlying those things. Sometimes that creates problems. And so, I am grateful that she helps me look at my assumptions.

October 8th

October 8th

I am Tahasi Massk

I had a few thoughts occur to me today. First, I am wondering if on some level I am just emotionally needy. Next, your love actively kindles embers of life in me. The flame that warms and sustains me. It is what makes life more than a strange sequence of events, devoid of any meaning. And the two things are related, because I realize that I have constant craving for your love.

October 7th

October 7th

I am Tahasi Massk

There are so many ways that I can try to show her how much I adore her. Sometimes I worry that she will doubt, or forget. Feeling loved has a short shelf life. I know that everything will work out for the best as long as she knows, and as long as I know she loves me. With those things in place, nothing else really matters.

October 6th

October 6th

I am Tahasi Massk

I love the way that you bring your unique insights to every teaching endeavor that you undertake. Whether it is teaching Shakesepeare to the children of friends, teaching spiritual principles to women, teaching other mothers how to teach their own children, or most importantly, teaching our children, you add a dimension that no one else can. I am ever so grateful for that talent.

October 5th

October 5th

I am Tahasi Massk

A few years ago we celebrated our anniversary in epic fashion. It started out by going up to a special hotel we love to visit. We did some shopping, got dinner, and then checked into the hotel. It was wonderful, but nothing terribly unusual. But, the next morning our adventure began! We realized that with a little effort we could squeeze out another day and a half of being away, and started looking at what to do. We considered another night in the hotel, but decided that we would rather go do something more exciting. We had our bikes in the car, so we headed to Southern Utah. We spent the day hiking and biking, and having a grand time. It was spontaneous, and fun, and I had a most amazing time.

October 4th

October 4th

I am Tahasi Massk

One of the great joys of our relationship is the chance to share our flights of fancy. To escape together in ‘What if’s?’ or ‘Wouldn’t it be cool’s?’ I think that at the heart of those is something deeper. They are a process of finding shared vision. It is like sneaking away together to a place outside of the current boundaries of reality. Deftly escaping reality’s snare in a mutually planned getaway. Living requires occasional extensions beyond what currently is. When we do so together, we become costars of our play, cohorts in our mutual plots.

October 3rd

October 3rd

I am Tahasi Massk

Having her in my life helps me become a better person. She is the reason that pursuing goodness seems easier. Naturally, it often requires change. Empowerment naturally takes effort. Real, hard, consistent, and persistent effort. That is simply the way that life works. But having her as a source of encouragement, working toward making her happy and proud makes it seem less hard, and more fun. It is like an added bonus on top of the natural rewards.

October 2nd

October 2nd

I am Tahasi Massk

I have written for 111 days. That seems like a big number and yet it seems like I just began. In looking back, I still wish I had thought of something like this earlier. I suppose we all have things like that. Things we wish we did, but didn’t know we would wish it until now. Everyone was young once. Real knowledge comes from experiences that impact us deeply enough to change. And looking back and wishing to have had the learning of age and experience prior to those experiences is kind of silly. In the end they can all help to teach us to love.