October 21st

October 21st

I am Tahasi Massk

Today as we rode she told me about the book she is reading. It made the miles go by even faster than normally do. I realize what a gift it is to get to know the way she sees things. Reaching our new goals, and really making sure that we become the best us that we can be requires that kind of communication. It doesn’t mean that every interaction is wonderful, but it does require moments where we hear with the same ears and see with the same eyes.

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October 20th

October 20th

I am Tahasi Massk

I sometimes have to wonder at the sheer number of her talents. She is one of the most organized people that I have met. She manages to keep everything—events, notes, books—recorded and in neat order so that she can find them later. I am trying to be better about that, but I am constantly grateful for her organizational skills.

October 19th

October 19th

I am Tahasi Massk

It is easy to say that she is perfect for me. But a part of me fears that she will take it as something different than I mean it to be. That it will seem like a standard that she has to live up to. Because the word perfect can have some daunting weight to it. And in reality, perfection, or really the concept of perfection, can hinder us if we are too focused on it as a state of being rather than a process. It is an ever-changing concept. And perfection is as much a choice we make as it is a state we are in.

October 18th

October 18th

I am Tahasi Massk

Sometimes a little time lets a kind emotion take root. There are days where she doesn’t feel her own worth. Doesn’t see herself for who she truly is. Days where she forgets how amazing she is. As much as I would like to make her see, that isn’t always possible. Time sometimes is the great healer of hearts as well as bodies.

October 17th

October 17th

I am Tahasi Massk

I love that we don’t have to be perfect to be perfect for each other. It may sound odd, but the bar for being perfect for each other is not as high as people think. It isn’t a matter of being right always, not doing X or always doing Z. It is really just a matter of loving each other, seeing each other with kind eyes, and being willing to change and become better together.

October 16th

October 16th

I am Tahasi Massk

There are moments where you seem to know instinctively that I need you to reach out loving. Letting even your insecurities disappear in an expression of love. I am so very grateful for those moments. In spite of all the apparent strength I may exhibit, there are weaknesses too. Fears, and self-doubts. And your love is truly the only thing that has the ability to cut through those things.

October 15th

October 15th

I am Tahasi Massk

Love is the suspension of suspicion, in favor of faith. It is the (sometimes terrifying) leap of logic to believe that the other person just might feel the same way about us as we feel about them. But it is always an act of faith, because really you can’t ever know what the other person is feeling. You just have to nourish the feeling inside yourself, and hope that it grows in the one you love as well.

October 14th

October 14th

I am Tahasi Massk

Yesterday we climbed Angel’s Landing. It was hard at points and a bit scary in places. It would have been much worse without the chains to hold onto. It is amazing how having someone to hold onto in life makes otherwise unpleasant things seem insignificant. Difficult events seem so much less so with her beside me.

October 13th

October 13th

I am Tahasi Massk

Hiking in Zion is one natural wonder after another. It fills me with awe at the beauty of creation. Being there with her makes it even more amazing. Often in nature, I am struck with the thought that ‘They didn’t have to make it this beautiful, but they did.’ Being with her I am often struck with the thought, ‘They didn’t have to bless me with someone so perfect for me, but they did.’

October 12th

October 12th

I am Tahasi Massk

Love is more art than science. I realize that I don’t always react the same way to similar situations. All of the pressures of life influence me more than I would like. She is the same. But patience and benefit of the doubt giving help us to see each other in the best light rather than the worst.