October 28th

October 28th

I am Tahasi Massk

When we are on long drives we like to play a game. In Tevye-esque fashion, we talk about what we would do if we were very wealthy. Over the years, we have changed our views on what we would do, so it is fun to see what has stayed the same and what is different. And even though we haven’t been blessed with material riches, we are blessed with the eternally strengthening thought. ‘It’s maybe only not yet.’

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October 27th

October 27th

I am Tahasi Massk

It is not at all hard to think of a long list of the things that I love about her. This blog is evidence enough of that. But I think that it is important to note that while they are things THAT I love they are not WHY I love. Discussions about beauty, and natural desirability only note traits. But at its core love is not about traits, but about being. I love her for who she is, not what she is. I love her for something more than her actions and abilities. She is more than those things, and she is the what I love.

October 26th

October 26th

I am Tahasi Massk

I like to think of our relationship as similar to the city of Petra. It is like a castle hewn out of some exotic stone. Richly inlaid, gilded hallways tunneling back into the rock in the middle of a beautiful canyon. Like Petra, I think that the most wonderful aspects are not things that are visible from far off. While I think that people might look at us, and see that there are nice aspects of our relationship, there is so much more. And our love forms a wonderful network of pathways deep into my soul.

October 24th

October 24th

I am Tahasi Massk

She amazes me daily in her devotion to becoming even more awesome than her substantially awesome nature. Developing the traits that may not come naturally is more laudable because it requires so much more out of the heart. Since kindness is not necessarily her natural state, it is all that much more impressive that she has developed it. Seeing her efforts fills me with a deeply powerful sense of love and awe.

October 24th

October 24th

I am Tahasi Massk

There will be certain times in every relationship where what matters to your partner is not how strong you are, but how open. Natural empathy strengthens ties, yet is difficult because it requires being open to the other completely. It welcomes them into our very self, and accepts them for who they are. While that might not be strength, it is most certainly not weakness. It is courage in its truest form.

October 23

October 23rd

I am Tahasi Massk

Occasionally, I will stumble across a memory that makes me smile deep inside. Things I haven’t written down, but that you just might have. And those moments make me wish that I could remember everything. And that I viewed it through your eyes. So that I could see the memory more vivdly. So that I could share it with you more completely. If the picture to word arithmetic is correct, it will take millions of words to visit them together verbally. Maybe that is why love lasts forever.

October 22nd

October 22nd

I am Tahasi Massk

When I start thinking about all of the wonderful flavors that season our love, it seems like there is a deliciously endless supply. In recalling everything that our love entails—afternoon rides, nighttime walks, early morning talks—each adds a dimension to the recipe that creates the nourishing love that we share.

October 21st

October 21st

I am Tahasi Massk

Today as we rode she told me about the book she is reading. It made the miles go by even faster than normally do. I realize what a gift it is to get to know the way she sees things. Reaching our new goals, and really making sure that we become the best us that we can be requires that kind of communication. It doesn’t mean that every interaction is wonderful, but it does require moments where we hear with the same ears and see with the same eyes.

October 20th

October 20th

I am Tahasi Massk

I sometimes have to wonder at the sheer number of her talents. She is one of the most organized people that I have met. She manages to keep everything—events, notes, books—recorded and in neat order so that she can find them later. I am trying to be better about that, but I am constantly grateful for her organizational skills.

October 19th

October 19th

I am Tahasi Massk

It is easy to say that she is perfect for me. But a part of me fears that she will take it as something different than I mean it to be. That it will seem like a standard that she has to live up to. Because the word perfect can have some daunting weight to it. And in reality, perfection, or really the concept of perfection, can hinder us if we are too focused on it as a state of being rather than a process. It is an ever-changing concept. And perfection is as much a choice we make as it is a state we are in.