September 29th

September 29th

I am Tahasi Massk

The way that I miss her is strange. Not because I do, but because of how I do. First, I notice little, almost negligible differences. My cheek itches, and my leg bounces. And the silence is different. More yellow than golden. I look at the clock too often. I keep going back into our room, then can’t remember why. I keep opening the fridge, then close it again. I go outside, and the sun hurts my eyes. And the temperature isn’t quite right. And I realize that it isn’t really the sun, or the temperature. It’s the space between our relative positions.

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September 28th

September 28th

I am Tahasi Massk

Today we flew down the trail. Creating our own breeze as our legs churned. Autumns ever changing hues etch patterns snaking toward our wandering path. Our lively conversation speeding us along, so that the end of the path came far too soon. Strange, but whenever we ride together, the ride is never long enough.

September 27th

September 27th

I am Tahasi Massk

My relationship with her is my daily bread. Without it I would soon starve. And like bread, it must be made and remade. It is something that must be created each day. A real connection is the yeast that makes the whole thing rise. Making the bread light, and giving it the texture that nourishes. You can make bread without yeast, but it lacks that fluffy airy texture. You can have a relationship without connection, but it will lack the lightness that makes it delicious.

September 26th

September 26th

I am Tahasi Massk

It is natural to ask why I love her. And to think of love as a process of finding the reasons. Eventually everyone realizes one or more thing that your love does that doesn’t increase your feelings of affection. But does that mean that your love has diminished? Love isn’t about reasons. It isn’t a pro and con list. It is the recognition that my insides light up when I see her. It is the pull I feel in my chest when I am away from her. It is the extra speed I feel in my legs when I am racing to see her.

September 25th

September 25th

I am Tahasi Massk

There are certain places that the mere thought of makes me feel happier inside. Places where memory has created a joy trigger. Days in sunshine. Nights enchanted. Youth lingering. Ands nothing dearer than the moment being lived. Those days, those nights, those moments, become forever.

September 24th

September 24th

I am Tahasi Massk

When we are completely in harmony, it is kind of amazing how awesome we are. It isn’t boasting, because I think that it is true for other people as well. It is simply a statement of fact. That when we as a couple move together as one, we become so much more than we are alone. When each of our strengths augments the other’s they multiply instead of simply adding. That kind of synchronous synergy takes effort, communication, humility, openness, and patience, but the result is far greater than the input.

September 23rd

September 23rd

I am Tahasi Massk

I think people sometimes forget that part of the beauty of life is the ever-changing complexion of love. Overwhelming romance and desire often contribute to our love, but there is so much more. A beautiful sunset often looks as though the edges of the clouds are tinged with flame, but that sunset wouldn’t have the power and beauty if the whole scene were that color. What gives love and sunsets their full beauty is the perfect combination of all the hues and shades that fill the sky. From the deep blue far above the horizon, paling as it descends, then changing to amber and gold, and finally forming a crimson line painting the tops of the mountains in the distance.

September 22nd

September 22nd

I am Tahasi Massk

Some days are just filled with joy. Day so happy, I feel like if I could only capture our feelings that day and bottle them, then we could open that bottle in the future and let the joy and love wash over us. In a way, that is what the purpose of this writing is. To capture those wonderful feelings in the moments when they occur.

September 21

September 21st

I am Tahasi Massk

We have been so blessed. In so many ways our lives have been filled with joy. Not because of any seismic success, but because of simple things. Our normal everyday life includes so much time together that when we have a couple of days where we see each other as much as most couples, I feel deprived. And when I think about how many years that has been the case, I am filled with deep gratitude.

September 20th

September 20th

I am Tahasi Massk

I often am surprised at how our tiny patterns of thought seem to impact our reality. A dream that we remember affects our whole day. A happy memory makes us feel glad for hours. Small acts of kindness increase our sense of competence and worth. Sometimes people focus on the grand moments or the big things, but love and life are in the little things.