July 31st

July 31st

The love that we share creates home out of space. Even though our location often varies extensively with regard to physical comfort, when we are together in both mind and body, I feel home. That feeling must be treasured. In part because it has the miraculous ability to create happiness out of something else entirely. And chooses how our thoughts have expression. Realizing that our need for one another is our strength, we hold onto each other fiercely, and with all the tenderness and all the urgency that a love like ours deserves.

July 30th

July 30th

I am Tahasi Massk

She is constantly improving. Looking for ways to make herself a little better at things all the time. Always striving to be just a little bit better. And feeling close to her, I absorb a little of that too. Feeling this way is like the sun, because our relationship remains other worldly. Every day, wonderful insights, newly green spring up in its light. And we can bask in the beauty of it. And just like the rising sun, it is a new miracle each day. The repetition of it should not diminish my absolute wonder and awe that it occurs.

July 29th

July 29th

I am Tahasi Massk

Forgetfulness destroys gratitude. Remembering actualizes thankfulness. I think up daily entires. I wake up and remember things. Little things and not so little things. I remember the way she folds a book carefully before setting it aside. I remember how her brilliant mind stimulates conversation. I remember playing ‘What would we do if…?’ I remember how lucky I am to be able to talk with her about anything in the world. I remember how her eyes are more beautiful than sunrise. I remember how much I need her.

July 28th

July 28th

I am Tahasi Massk

One of the most dangerous enemies of our love is complacency. When I first fell in love, I was  constantly amazed by the wonder of her. And my love for her had powerful effects on me. I wanted to make myself better because of her. And I began to see the unique gifts that we created when we combined our strengths. But all too easily, time and exposure lulls me into taking our love for granted. And when that happens, complacency actually negates those good effects. That eventually neutralizes our unique gifts. How do I stop this enemy? I do what I promised in the very first entry. And the effects and the gifts flow, just like they did when I first fell in love.

July 29th

July 27th

I am Tahasi Massk

One of our secrets for success of late has been this. If there is something fun to be done, we do it together. By combining what we love with being together, we tether emotion and memory, making a togetherness even stronger every day. We ride through the heat of the day, and the cool of the night. We hike to beautiful vistas. We read conversation starting books, then lay in bed and talk about what we have read. With each wonderful moment, joy becomes more synonymous with us.

July 26th

July 26th

I am Tahasi Massk

Our love is many things. As varied as the weather, it changes constantly. We learn to appreciate each unique season of our love. Sometimes out love is fierce. Electricity buzzing each sweet interaction. Desire energized hearts enhancing reality in sublime ways. Our words weaving a connection between us that pulses with life. We savor these passionate springtime days, because they come and go, replaced by other days. Days just as loving, just as lovely, and just as deeply appreciated.

July 25th

July 25th

I am Tahasi Massk

We have been so lucky. Spending what would be the coldest months living in an island paradise. The lucky part is the living part. One day the clouds burst. We took a body board, and used the strap as a tow rope. The slight depression in the grass behind the row of apartments had filled with water. We ran, pulling each of the children one at a time on the board. They skimmed across the grassy stream in the downpour. We were all laughing even harder than the rain was falling. It is amazing how a warm afternoon, in island torrential rain is pure joy when we are together. And amazing how lucky we are to truly live.

July 24th

July 24th

I am Tahasi Massk

I have often slipped into taking our love for granted. Taking her for granted. Days fill themselves with things to do, and places to be. The sum of all those small things begins to be a burden. Luckily, our unspoken rituals lighten it. Finding the little things throughout the day that link us. Pausing to kiss or send a kissing emoji, at the times her self-created ‘chrono-numerology’ deems ‘lucky.’ A quick pat or squeeze at greeting or parting, even though it may violate her ‘no backside touching’ rule. Massaging her hand anytime we are sitting beside each other. All these small things lift us together.

July 23rd

July 23rd

I am Tahasi  Massk

Books have been a connecting force in our relationship from the beginning. When we were both in school and studying hard, we would take one class together. We would stay up late, each holding one side of a novel while we read. Whoever finished first, would say ‘OK.’ I would know that she was falling asleep, because those were the only times that I got to say ‘OK.’ We still bond over books. When either of us reads, or listens to a book we like, we suggest it to the other. And then we say up late, having wonderful discussions. It doesn’t have to be something earth shattering to make the cut. Lately, even a relatively normal, inauspicious novella generates hours of conversation.

July 22nd

July 22nd

I am Tahasi Massk

A few words of advice for our not so little girl, taking her not so little step today. Each day, take time to think, to speak, and to act kindly. Even simple actions help us grow. Every sympathetic thought, every pleasant word, every considerate deed changes us in little ways. We create our story with a thousand thoughts. We write our story with a thousand words. We live our story with a thousand acts.